Another Day

I am so tired. But not like oh I really need sleep tired but just like my body is trying to get well and it's wearing me out!!

I have a German test tomorrow.

I can't wait to be married. And by be married I really mean get married. And by get married I really mean have a wedding and a honeymoon, etc. Maybe I should be a wedding planner. Then I would get to have weddings for the rest of my life. I mean it could be really fun. We'll see what God has in store. He always has something new up His sleeve that is unexpected. So I'll shoot for my wedding first and then Germany and then we'll pick it up from there.

I can't wait for the rest of my life to happen but at the same time it's like I've waited so long for it, I don't really want it to be over yet. So yes I want all of those things but right now I really like anticipating them all. I'm ready to still be young for a little while. And the great thing is, is that I get to.

It just seems like that once you hit 20 life hits the fast forward button. I don't really feel like that yet butI am really nervous about everything going so fast and turning around and realizing I am 50 and my kids have left home, etc.

I really hope that I know Chris in Heaven. Because then there is no fear of this life ever being over. Don't get me wrong. I can't wait for Heaven either but I would feel sad if we didn't know each other there. Because to me right now he is Heaven.

:)