Prim and Proper

What do I normally write about? Whatever I am feeling or thinking about, I guess. But I don't really want to write about what is on my mind right now because I would rather start the year out positively. That's not really the point of these things is it. It's supposed to help me think creatively and release everything that is going on.

I can't really tell you what has been going on lately. I've been going through a series of different emotions, all extremes. It's been happy and stressful all at the same time. Honestly I would just like a break. It feels like no matter how much I sleep I still don't feel rested. Maybe it's the anticipation of everything to come. Maybe I am anticipating this next semester and having to deal with the stress of school and the stress of long distance again. Also, there's the possibility of graduating early and moving to Oklahoma and getting married, etc. It's all so much. But does it ever stop? It just seems like now its one big decision right after the next.

And then the doubt creeps in. Are any of these decisions actually right? It's amazing how a little less time in prayer can allow room for so many questions. We are so young. But we are so sure. But are we really sure? I'm pretty sure I'm sure. I just don't want us to make a mistake. Barbara's right. The important thing is the communication. And it seems like we get better at it everyday. It's weird to think that being happy can still allow for so much stress. It is really stressful and again, I have a feeling that it doesn't get any easier. If only I could get a good night's sleep. Maybe when I'm sleeping next to him I will. We'll see.

Prim and Proper with a little unique.

You're worth it.

This is a picture of me in my room talking on the phone to Chris (see bluetooth headset) and holding a gingerbread man cookie. This cookies were made by Chris and I for my party last week. We got a little creative and added the sprinkles and peppermints to the cookies. They were really good. However, this was one was pretty stale. I still ate it out of principle.



"Move To The Other Side Of The Block"
So we try and try all of our lives
Working with such pride, making cash just to survive
As we race and grade and judge always
other folks mistakes makes us good to feel that way.

And don't you know, it never stops.
Try to please the world and beat the ticking clocks,
but I, I'm not letting it happen this time.

No, no, because they're rooting I'll fail, and rooting she'll bail,
they feel so secure when I'm in this jail, but I,
I'm not letting it happen this time

So I'll move to the other side of the block
so we wont ever have to stop
making the rounds, having the laughs
singing the sounds of relaxing,
and on the other side of the clock
the power switch will be turned off
and all will be well and time will stand still,
and I will be locked out from my jail.